— Chuck Palahniuk
If there is something to desire
If there is something to desire,
there will be something to regret.
If there is something to regret,
there will be something to recall.
If there is something to recall,
there was nothing to regret.
If there was nothing to regret,
there is nothing to desire.
—Vera Pavlova, from If There Is Something to Desire: One Hundred Poems (Alfred A. Knopf, Borzoi Books, 2010).
Translated from the Russian by Steven Seymour
Painting: Harutyun Gulamir Khachatryan, Desire, n.d.
— Galway Kinnell, Middle of the Way (via word-digest)
— David Foster Wallace, Infinite Jest, as quoted in D. T. Max’s Every Love Story Is a Ghost Story (via fishingboatproceeds)
On becoming the stereotype: Why yes, I did just use a coupon to purchase ingredients for matzah ball soup. And it’s going to be DELICIOUS.
— Lyn Hejinian
— Joseph Gordon-Levitt on his character in 500 Days of Summer (via living-life-at-too-high-a-pitch)
I am anxious, existentially wobbly, and mindlessly prone to crafting a self-brand instead of an identity. Lately, I’ve even found myself fantasizing more about the commemorative photographs associated with future goals than about accomplishing the goals themselves. It’d be easy to blame advertising and consumerist culture, but to do so would devalue my self-agency. Their ploys only work because I’m lazily allowing them to do so, rather than addressing the underlying pathology in a critical way and then ballsing up to it to change for the better.
P.S. That and OCD. I really hate my OCD. I want a better brain! A crystal clear organized brain, not a foggy, frantic, messy one that takes too long to load and has too little hard-drive space and limited battery life.